I miss your toes,
I wake up missing you
Go to sleep missing you
Spend the day pretending I don’t miss you
I walk the Earth now without you
But you glide above me
My arms no longer fit around your torso
My eyes no longer meet your eyes
Though your energy caresses me
You are here, yet also there
I am almost here and not yet there
I walk in-between hoping to find you
I find neither you nor myself
I wait for your return in another
I make you there
Force their arms to be yours
Their voice with you behind it
You were my Ancient Warmth
That wrapped around me safety
You cradled me, shielded me
Braced and embraced me
I leaned on your Ancient Warmth
To bring me Home
Now I must find my own Ancient Warmth
Inside of myself
I wanted you to do it for me
So I wouldn’t have to rise to my own occasion
I wanted to always hide my strength
Behind yours
Now you stepped aside physically
And I feel exposed
God does this to wake me.